Well, we hired a gal last December to find my birth brother but so far no real news. By February 1st she had only just sent out letters to 103 men born on his birthday ----but come to find out - they were NOT just born IN Colorado - but the whole darn USA!!! - UGH! I'll bet there are 1000's of men born on that day - afterall there are only 365 days in a year and only 2 sexes - do the math - it's crazy! And....... most of the letters came back undeliverable.
Now you can see why I am depressed - I know I should leave it at the foot of the cross - I know I should just trust the Lord in this matter but I am having trouble - my humanness is getting the best of me - wanting to know my birth brother is getting the best of me – forking out $500 for the search is making me feel like a fool because it seems that things are not sounding as “great” as they did a few months ago when I thought we hired someone who said
“I have conducted thousands of searches”
But why did letters get sent to only a SMIDGIN of men who share my birth brother’s birthday for Pete’s sake? I just can’t believe it – seems like a nightmare!
She also said
“I am not here to take advantage of you!”
But I don’t know if I believe that – she is the professional not me – yet….. I have to provide the list of men who where born in Colorado
I am still going to hope, even through my depressed feelings – ultimately my hope is in the Lord and if He wants me to find him – in the end I will
